past time

yesterday i just stayed at home it was so boring i don't know how will i consume my time i had nothing to do. i surfed the net the whole afternoon but our internet connection was very slow it made me miffed. im so curious on how to change my blog skin but i cant stand understanding the procedure. i wish that i'll have more patience on doing that thing.

as day goes on i became more and more frustrated about myself. i hate that feeling i want to move on but i guess it will take longer time to be in acceptance stage. im so confuse on what will i do i want to enroll for a tutorial but i have that second thoughts that my money will just go into waste. im saving money right now because i left 1k in my pocket i have to budget that for a month (do i sound pathetic here or exagerating). how can i budget that? but it's okay i have to sacrifice my cravings about material things. i didn't expect this things will happen to me. i thought after finishing my school i would easily find a job and im totally wrong. i really had a hard time time find one perhaps it's not my time to earn money. but tommorrow i have a plans to apply for a call center but im so afraid to pursue it. i might failed again in the interview.