i'm here again

I spend my day facing the computer and my eyes are getting blurred.
If you could read my entry before it was all non-sensical maybe i'm careless in putting my thoughts on this it doesn't matter as long as i feel relieve in getting monotony.
I miss going to greenhills to shop something if i have extra money. But now i'm broke but it's okay maybe i have to prioritize more important things so i have to leave my shopping cravings.
My brain is getting tired. i want to to do something different i want to work to earn money but i'm so petrified with the initial interview i think in advance that i'm gonna failed. So pessimistic.

I have to face my fears I have to say to myself "don't let my fears thwart me".
i have to be strong and face all the struggles in life if i want to achieve triumph.
yeah i'm being madrama again......


an exasperating encounter
my friend called me yesterday it was 10 pm.

i knew she was the one who is calling so i said to her that i failed but this is her reply " no you passed i saw your name in the newspaper and it was C********, C**** and i thought it was just a typograpical error"

It was so annoying hello is she okay? or she's just a stupid or anything we've been friends for fours years and she doesn't know how's the spelling of my name. Maybe she was kidding that time but im not in the mood to play with jokes. if you could see the name the she was referring it was totally different to mine. It's like a she called me just to insult me.

now i considered her as a shit in my life even she is kind.