emotional distress

i've been so weary this past few days it's like God spread depression in the world and I catched all of it. But this blog help me to solace myself from it. it's very hard to hide my feelings from my dissapointment but that's life i have to move on. I have to face my future with more courage and i'm sure there will be a time that I'll face bigger problems than this and God prepares me from that. life isn't perfect.

I want to laze myself but i can't all the worries inside my head bothers me a lot. I dont' know when will and how to start a brand new life. I have to leave my fears behind so it wouldn't distruct me from everything that i will do. I questioned myself is the world fair to everyone? why this things happpened to me? Am i a losser?

But all this question that i asked from myself I'm the only one who can answer it. But I have to see the brighter side of my life instead the darkside. I'm still very lucky despite of the failures I've been through. I guess it is just a trials of my life. I have to be strong our life is enivetable so be ready what will happen next.

It's very painful for me to see those people who expected a lot from me and I gave them so much dissapointment. And the one person I need today is turning his back on me. So now i consider this blog as my best friend ever. thank you for the technology you made my life easier as well as for others.

I have to tied-up myself from studying again I'm so tired and sick of it but i have to and i guess im not the only one who will do this kind of ritual in life were so many.................................

i should never give up on what i've started even if i failed i think i have be more dedicated.
there's nothing wrong on trying things over and over again it's just a matter of faith in god.

This failure that ive been going through makes me furious but It's a part of healing process. It will take time........