regrets.......

i always slept late since i saw the fucking result. i waited for so long just to see it and when i already saw it i felt it ruin my plans. i'm still grieving it hurts so much after all the hard work that i've done it will just end up in going back in my ritual. I tried to study again earlier but when i'm reading my notes i easily get whacked so i stopped. I'm not yet ready to study those topic again. But when will i become ready? next day, month and so on and so forth. for sure il cram and it so stressful.

I'm getting envious for those who passed the exam. why others can made it? and why I can't?
it's just a matter of fortune and hardwork.

i regret why i took up nursing because i failed but i have to continue what i've started because if i don't pursue it would be wasted.

REASONS WHY I TOOK NURSING

• my father told me so i followed what he said before he died. at first im skeptic in taking up nursing but as learning process goes i learned to love it.
• It's in demand abroad but i have doubts working there life ain't easy living alone.
• high salary abroad but not here, you will easily earn money especially in U.S but spending my money alone will not give me euphoria. and if i work here im sure it's very toxic and yet undercompensated but i'm with my family. for me it's nice to be with my family than having a heaps of money alone.
• i love life science it tickles my interest