i loathe myself without reason......

i want to write something new about myself but i can't express it into writtings so better to leave it inside of myself. i hate my life i can't express how i annoyed myself im frustated again.

moving on the next topic and stop hating myself.
i have plans to apply in call center in shaw im really dying for a job. I will become totally broke if coudn't get one. the time is running and my pocket is also burning my cash until now im still jobless. im getting nervous now to think i still have 2 days to prepare myself for a palpitating interview.

i dont wanna hear this to my interviewer again "let's give us ample time to evaluate your resume" what a heck? just tell me straight to my face if i passed or failed dont give me another agony. ive heard that so many times with my interviewer and i don't wanna hear that again.
if i would hear that i again i should stop myself from applying in freaking call center. Maybe it's not for me.

in my other entry i told their that i want to undergo tutorial but i didn't mention what tutorial it is. and now i already changed my mind i decided to save my money and i'll just do a self study.
i hope i can do it and understand those tiresome things.

it's already 5 am still i haven't slept yet my insomia is severely attacking me. im having a hard time to sleep early because i usually wake up at 5 Pm. i sleep the whole day and at night im fully awake im like a KUAGO. If i would have a chance to be a CSR in graveyard shift i think i wouldn't have a hard time to be in that schedule but the task i guess it's thorny.